Earlier in the day, I had thought I might be hungry for a diner's food rather than Chinese and was thinking about going to One Man Band. I decided against it because I really like the quiet to reflect on my own thoughts rather than to think on the poetry & music of someone else and One Man Band's jukebox is often playing, while the Chinese restaurant that we like is quiet. I was surprised to be greeted by Fun.'s "Carry On" as Steve & I walked into the restaurant. At first I chose to think of it as a good omen, after all, it has been on repeat in my brain & my youtube for months. After a while though, I was frustrated that we hadn't gone to One Man Band because there was a chance no one would put a quarter in the jukebox....
We stayed and ordered in spite of the music. I prayed and pondered and mentioned to Steve time and again that I felt like the proverbial blank slate - absolutely nothing was presenting itself to me in the form of a word or saying for a mantra for the year. I was surprised and saddened, because usually the thoughts come so easily....
I excused myself and went into the restroom where I hoped it would be quieter, and it was. I prayed some more, and the answer/feeling I received surprised me. This is from my journal:
This past year has been stressful and busy. The other day, I got a very hopeful feeling about 2014. I hope that feeling is correct.
I'm feeling very much like a blank slate. I've prayed and pondered and nothing is coming into my mind.
I don't know if it is because there is music on this year (at the restaurant) & I can't think, or if there is a bigger reason. Still thinking....
I just returned from the restroom. I prayed again and the feelings I received are very interesting.
I told the Lord that I felt like a blank slate & I felt from inspiration, "What is wrong w/ being a blank slate?" and that if my mind was filled w/ thoughts I wouldn't be doubting that was my answer, but when I keep thinking about feeling like a blank slate I think something must be wrong.
I got the feeling, which is true, that I take my word and overlay it on my year. What if this year, I let the year teach me what it is that I need to learn?
So this year, I will be the proverbial blank slate and wait to see what the world would like to teach me.
Usually I go out to find & fix - this year, I will wait and learn what I'm supposed to learn.
My fortune cookie said, "Time is precious, but truth is more precious than time."
My goals for the year:
* "Work out" every day: planks, stretching, squatting, push ups & other strength building activities.
* Live life hanging onto the moment and learning what it offers
* Craft, quilt, cross stitch - get use out of the bifocals :)